When Having It All Still Hurts - Paperback

by Rashanda Johnson (Author)

When Having It All Still Hurts is a raw, intimate memoir from Rashanda McCants Johnson-a former professional athlete who seemingly had it all: a name etched in sports history, a loving husband, a beautiful daughter, and a life that looked picture-perfect from the outside. But behind the applause, trophies, and family portraits was a quiet ache she could no longer ignore.

With unflinching honesty and poetic vulnerability, Rashanda peels back the layers of what it means to be a strong Black woman in a world that often demands your silence. She takes readers through the formative moments that shaped her-from a childhood of quiet observation and contradictions, to being cheered and chosen on the court, to the devastating moments of loss, betrayal, miscarriage, and burnout that followed her retirement from basketball. Through each chapter, she speaks directly to the women who break generational curses with tired hands and whispered prayers-who carry more than they were ever meant to hold.

This is not a "how-to" memoir. It is a "how-I-survived" offering for women who love deeply but forget to love themselves, who chase peace after the applause fades, and who carry dreams and disappointments in the same breath. Rashanda writes with the emotional honesty of a daughter, the grit of a champion, and the grace of a mother who wants more for her child.

At its core, When Having It All Still Hurts is about truth-telling-especially the truths we whisper to ourselves when no one is watching. It's about reclaiming identity, redefining success, and choosing softness in a world that rewards struggle.

For every woman who's ever smiled while silently unraveling, this book is a mirror, a balm, and a battle cry. Because survival isn't the end of the story. Sometimes, it's just the beginning.