Foster, I Am Not Your Daughter: Surviving Abuse - Paperback

by Sofia French (Author)

Why I wrote this Memoir

I authored this book to formally acknowledge the abuse inflicted by individuals who were entrusted with my care. My intention was also to address and overcome the lingering psychological effects associated with that trauma. Additionally, I sought recognition for the nurturing provided by my true mother, crediting her for my well-being and distancing acknowledgment from those connected to the prolonged mistreatment I experienced.

I want my twin brother to know that when he was required to carry those heavy white buckets of slope for the pigs, we carried them together, and I will always remember that. Additionally, I would like him to know that his appearance, including his dark skin and jerry curly hairstyle, is a part of my memories. He can now return home without facing physical discipline or being expected to do tasks typically assigned to adults. I wrote a memoir to remember the red shirt incident involving my brother and to expose how foster mothers treated him and other children in their care.

I am working toward moving beyond the pain I have experienced, and although these feelings may persist, I am now able to discuss these events openly, which was not previously possible. I can state that being slapped affected my sense of self-worth. Additionally, I recognize that being raped and sexually assaulted has influenced my interactions with men, while also understanding that such actions do not represent all men.

I had to return to the gate because of my mother and twin brother so I would always know where to find them. That place holds my identity, love, and all my happy memories. I wrote this book for my siblings, to show it's okay to let go of pain and recognize that many challenges stem from our time in foster care. My goal is to shed the label of "foster child," even as an adult. Mommie, you may now rest assured that, although my journey has been lengthy, I have become stronger, improved, and continue to heal. Your love will always remain with me. I wrote this book as a tribute to your care and to honor the bond between us.